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wHOOP i'm just a kiddo on the internet with no talent whatsoever. this is my excuse to escape grammar skills lmao

fun fact: I am currently studying Japanese and have reached a basic level of sorts (I'm no pro though). はじめまして!デーリ・たさくらいんともうします。おげんきですか?

sometimes I make MMD models!

btw if i ever forget to credit you for something just scream at me, it'll be fixed i swear

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hello there. I absolutely feel like I need to get this off my chest, because I'll feel guilty if I don't. maybe not guilty in the sense that truly, I haven't done anything wrong recently, but still, it feels like there's an elephant sitting on my chest.

why have I been gone? why haven't I been posting?

I'm not all sure myself, right now. I don't want to say uninspired, because that would be lying to myself. for starters, I just began high school and the work load is big. I shouldn't be writing this journal; I've got an Honors ELA project to finish, but this is important. have I been lacking in ideas? yeah, that's part of it. another part would be that I have ideas, but I don't have the skills.

see, I've always seen myself as inferior to everyone else. everybody is practicing and getting better and making greater things, but whenever I try, all I get is no response or just absolute garbage. for example, my ex and I used to run blogs (vocaloid ask blogs, more specifically). neither of us were phenomenal artists, but no matter how much I practice, she always managed to move on and ended up becoming friends with a few very famous Vocalo-Ps in the west because of her art. (sure, there's probably more to it, but that's how I've interpreted it.) I remember crying and crying whenever her name was mentioned or whenever I saw her; now I'm on a club crew with her doppelganger, interestingly enough.

the same can be said for mmd. I've been in the game for over four years now, yet obscure accounts will appear out of thin air and have god-like skills. I can't make shit, but then I see a ton of amazing creators being able to make their own clothing/models in meta and pmxe. again, there's skill, and time =/= skill—but no matter how hard I try, I can't do anything. I suppose it's because I'm completely clueless.

then there's my mental state. now, I'm not going to say I'm clinically depressed, since I have not talked to a doctor of any sort about it. however, I've been in that general headspace for at least a couple of years now. I'm in complete denial almost all of the time, I'm socially awkward, and I feel so lonely and useless. I feel so restricted, not being able to create my visions, like I'm a waste of "talent". everyone else has someone to rely on, or someone special, and I'm always afraid I'll never find that one person that no matter how bad I am at everything, they'll accept me for me. in some ways, I want to curl up and die and never see the day again.

it always feels like my attempts are futile and that I'll never succeed in life. I'll just end up working some boring desk job, wishing I had pursued my dreams, but it'd have been "too much" or "out of our budget". it's actually kinda funny, I've received quite a few good things in life, yet I'm still unhappy with where I am.

in the end, it's all silly and it doesn't matter. thanks for reading if you made it this far.
  • Reading: JoJolion (waiting for the next update)

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I get that it's literally just a phone but if I update it now then it won't send me all those damn annoying "update ur iphone now!!1! uhuhuh!!11!!!!!11" messages every morning.
my iphone 5s can't seem to update to ios 11. I cleared out over 600 photos, snapchat, youtube, etc. for this update and now it's giving my errors. makes me want to throw myself at a truck.
hello there. I absolutely feel like I need to get this off my chest, because I'll feel guilty if I don't. maybe not guilty in the sense that truly, I haven't done anything wrong recently, but still, it feels like there's an elephant sitting on my chest.

why have I been gone? why haven't I been posting?

I'm not all sure myself, right now. I don't want to say uninspired, because that would be lying to myself. for starters, I just began high school and the work load is big. I shouldn't be writing this journal; I've got an Honors ELA project to finish, but this is important. have I been lacking in ideas? yeah, that's part of it. another part would be that I have ideas, but I don't have the skills.

see, I've always seen myself as inferior to everyone else. everybody is practicing and getting better and making greater things, but whenever I try, all I get is no response or just absolute garbage. for example, my ex and I used to run blogs (vocaloid ask blogs, more specifically). neither of us were phenomenal artists, but no matter how much I practice, she always managed to move on and ended up becoming friends with a few very famous Vocalo-Ps in the west because of her art. (sure, there's probably more to it, but that's how I've interpreted it.) I remember crying and crying whenever her name was mentioned or whenever I saw her; now I'm on a club crew with her doppelganger, interestingly enough.

the same can be said for mmd. I've been in the game for over four years now, yet obscure accounts will appear out of thin air and have god-like skills. I can't make shit, but then I see a ton of amazing creators being able to make their own clothing/models in meta and pmxe. again, there's skill, and time =/= skill—but no matter how hard I try, I can't do anything. I suppose it's because I'm completely clueless.

then there's my mental state. now, I'm not going to say I'm clinically depressed, since I have not talked to a doctor of any sort about it. however, I've been in that general headspace for at least a couple of years now. I'm in complete denial almost all of the time, I'm socially awkward, and I feel so lonely and useless. I feel so restricted, not being able to create my visions, like I'm a waste of "talent". everyone else has someone to rely on, or someone special, and I'm always afraid I'll never find that one person that no matter how bad I am at everything, they'll accept me for me. in some ways, I want to curl up and die and never see the day again.

it always feels like my attempts are futile and that I'll never succeed in life. I'll just end up working some boring desk job, wishing I had pursued my dreams, but it'd have been "too much" or "out of our budget". it's actually kinda funny, I've received quite a few good things in life, yet I'm still unhappy with where I am.

in the end, it's all silly and it doesn't matter. thanks for reading if you made it this far.
  • Reading: JoJolion (waiting for the next update)
announcement of the day: I love you all (in a platonic way ofc), thank you for being here even through my inactivity
if y'all could comment a basic item that's small to medium in size (i.e. glasses, books, idk what else) I'd appreciate it because I wanna try making something simple in metaseq but pretty much every else has been done y'know?? anyway thank you have a nice day/night uwu


also I completely missed kagepro day/my 2 year returning-to-mmd anniversary I'm so bad at being active in this community I apologize
  • Reading: JoJolion (waiting for the next update)

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Happy birthday~! ^_^
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TheDailyKagamine Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Student Digital Artist
tysm!!
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You're very welcome ^^
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Thanks for watching me! Love 
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thank u so much for the watch kaomoji set 1 9/19 
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Thank you for the watch!
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